Friday - it is the day of reckoning - to give up the hair or not to give up the hair? I can try and hang on to it for a few more days since I am finding it hard to let go, but I don't think it will last very much longer. It was my plan to go and have it all cut off today, but somehow I can't bring myself to make the call. This is the time when I have to face the fact that I do have cancer and will now start to look like other cancer patients that are going through chemotherapy treatments. Up to now, I have been able to kid myself, on the surface at least, that all is well!! I even sometimes forget I have cancer, especially on a good day. The bald head will be a constant reminder.
Oh well - will see how the day goes - perhaps I will get the courage.
Sunday
Well, I didn't take the plunge on Friday - and on Saturday I just ignored the fact that anything was happening. The kids came over and the house was full of people and two dogs - so it was not time to think about myself. I was introduced to the new puppy - Zoe - and fell in love. She is so cute and a very good puppy,. Brandon and Tamara have strict rules with her and hopefully the training works out for them. They brought her cage and she is so good - goes in to it no problem - and we didn't hear a peak from her during the night. She played with Steve - they met in the park and chased each other and play until they were exhausted. Steve tells her when she oversteps the mark and it was interesting to watch them.
They all left on Saturday to cut down the tree -took the dogs and had fun picking out the tree that was 'just right'!.
We started getting the tree into the living room this morning, however the tree stand wasn't cooperating. We had got it in the stand and started decorating and it was looking really nice. I went to add 1 more ornament and the thing started to tilt!! Oh Oh - not fitting well in the stand. So we had to 'undress' the tree and Brandon had to cut off bottom branches and re-set it into the stand.
I finally made the decision to have the hair gone and we called Tina at Baxter's Wigs and asked if we could come over and have the hair cut off. They are so good there - Tina didn't hesitate (remember it is Sunday) and said to come on over. So off and I we went - she very gently took the hair off and it was quite the transformation. I didn't cry - I was ready. I knew it was coming and it was just a matter of doing it. So they tell me, surprisingly, that I look pretty good with the bald. A couple of times I caught a glimpse of my dad in the mirror (my dad was bald from being young) ha ha - so I did it!! Rockin' the bald!!! CANCER VIXEN!!! My new nickname!!
I had my wig adjusted to fit properly and so I left looking better than I did going in. It's done. I bought a 'buff' - kind of a turban thing - just something to cover my head and wear around the house etc. Then as Nicole is leaving she gave me an early Christmas present which was another buff but in a different colour - so I am all set.
When Nicole and I got back home - the tree was decorated and looking so pretty! Thanks Brandon and Tamara for doing that while we were gone.
I quite like the feel of 'no hair' - it is a bit liberating. Remember it is cut at a No 1 on the clippers, so there is a little bit of hair - but it will all fall out - in fact you can pull it out no problem - but I will let it disappear on its own.
Gift opening this weekend. Yesterday I opened 2 - one for Friday and one for Saturday:
1st was 2 nail polishes and nail files - great colours - one is glittery and I will wear for the Christmas party. Thank you so much gift giver
2nd was an assortment of body products - Aveeno moisturiziners, creams, mints, etc. etc. Fabulous - thank you so much.
And today's gift for just great - several packages in one bag - not sure if I was supposed to open them all, but I did - braided hat, socks, movie passes, Prada perfume (yum) and a book. Thank you so much.
It is amazing having these gifts to open - I still can't believe it. And I am loving it!! Thanks to everyone,.
Jeaninne
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